2 weeks and 2 days left!

So I'm about 2 weeks away from surgery and I'm so excited. my pre op visit is set for Monday the 8th and i guess that's when i start my two week diet... I actually had my first skinny dream a couple of days ago, i was on a beach in my normal attire a tankini and a mumu like cover up dress that zipped up the front to hide myself. My best friend was with me (she weighs about as much as handful of quarters) and she kept begging me to take off my cover up and swim with her. in my dream I'm thinking Hell No lol. so she unzips it and rips it off me and i start sprinting to the bathroom. Got there looked in the mirror and everything was... smaller lol.... i was actually OK with wearing my bathing suit at a public beach... Ive been smiling ever since i had that dream. I've never felt i was missing out on much when it came to the fun of youth, i was always OK when my sisters would go to a club or a party without me, but now I'm starting to think that was my mind tricking me into being a hermit crap so that i could hide without thinking much of it. one thing i am having a problem with now is nerves. I don't think I'm nervous, really I'm just feeling excited, but underneath all my layers of denial my body is giving me sign that i really am nervous. All of a sudden my stomach is really weak, i want to sleep all the time, and i keep getting these random spats of my arms and legs going numb. My hands start to shake bad at night. i don't know if this is anxiety or if this is something actually happening to me. (Warning: Girly things are about to be talked about). because of my P.C.O.S (poly cystic ovarian syndrome) i probably have a cycle every 4-6 months. My OB says its likely  that i wont ever have children and that never really effected me either until now. I know I'm just spewing random things at this point but these are the thing that have been weighing heavy (no pun intended) on my mind. Anyway, i guess only time will tell, but i still cant wait! Until next time!